i like you but i can't let you noe

2007-10-27T18:47:00.000+08:00

bubblydraft.livejournal.com

2007-10-24T13:57:00.000+08:00

thought the life is a bed of roses
but now it seems never it is
results really matter everything
irregardless how much efforts
sacrifices you put in
eventually it becomes nothing
when the results produced
is not The one wanted
With a word 'sorry' from The one
off you leave this place
and never to come back
with that word he just totally
ignore everything
your heart and soul that had
been put inside previously
now all you can do is to cry
cry becoz of the unfairness
cry becoz of the sadness
cry becoz of the harsh reality
Cry becoz, leaving this place
just like that is the least thing
you will ever want to....

life separates into many paths
it is never the end of the world
two years to many people is a waste
but it is also a learning journey
it just knocks some sense into the mind
that to achieve something is never
smooth sailing
one consolation, the 100% support of
the friends and family
in whatever decisions made

embarrassment put aside
low self-esteem thrown away
courage and determinations
are the essential things needed
to start anew afresh

2007-10-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

《一个人》
Jolin蔡依林

从皮包里抽出我们的照片
沙发要移到客厅的另一边
晚饭后你可以多抽几口香烟
已经没有什么人埋怨
晴天　阴天　今天又是星期天
唯一的打算是醒的晚一些
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门　没差别
一个人　到底应该睡左边或右边
两个人　连一次争吵都值得纪念
一个人　偶尔感到寂寞在所难免］
你的气味还留在枕头边
一个人　我重新适应一切不方便
两个人　不一定就成全一个世界
一个人　关灯看见记忆的横切面
没有光线　过去那些情节　更明显

2007-10-14T18:42:00.000+08:00

went looking thru the old photos

in lala's blog

one thing just appears in my mind

i really miss the whole bunch of them

yes...those i was really close to in sec 3/4

in fact most of them re still close to me

i miss the time when we had lessons,

ganged up together to do naughty things,

going out, going thru EFL (taman esp)

last min chionging for O's etc

despite The conflict that happened

i really enjoyed their companions

running the photos taken during the trip

to taman on slideshow

all the memories flow back gradually

the fun, joy, tear, screaming and shouting

thick and thin we did gone thru

quite lazy to upload the rest

should do another post on this again

when i switch to LJ

i am quite tempted to do so

since blogger is kinda of sucky

2007-10-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

there re so many things i want to do
but i am afraid of losing the chances
to complete them
now i am holding on to a thin string
anytime i may just fall
i just really hope i dun

2007-10-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL STARTS TMR!
equals to results coming bk
that why i drag to go back now
argh!!!!!!

2007-10-01T18:58:00.000+08:00

i am getting tired of blogging
maybe i am just plain lazy to do so again
after my last post which was abt 1 mth ago
promos is like so gng to be over
H1 on thurs and then that's it
it feel like one of the most impt thing
is off my chest finally
and i never feel as hardworking as before
for the fact that i actually made myself
go thru afternoon and night study in sch
almost everyday
well i think the credits do goes to athena,
ping and shu- my study partners
as well as the studying atmosphere in the
sch library
i do admit that i love cj library
beside studying, is a nice place to take a nap 2
i just need little more determination and willpower
to get my engine going and i am glad i did
watever the outcome is, be it good or bad
i will just accept it and see how it goes :)

2007-09-08T15:38:00.000+08:00

Specially dedicated to my laughing partner
ATHENA WEE

happy birthday once again crazy girl!
no neeed to mention and we all noe you
had the best birthday celebration ever
last night :) lol
Athena wee if you have had gone to poly
i bet i will have miss out such a wonderful fren,
teammate and a laughing partner
so glad you made the right choice to stay
although you re so stress-out by sch but hey we got
each other's backings rite as well as the whole swim
team too! :)
love you girl!
and yess do wat you promised me, con't to make me laugh!

LOves,
xuan

2007-09-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

family stuffs cropped up this morning
made me miss my dinner date with the swimmers
:(:(:(
actually my presence is useless over at my ah ma's hse
well in fact most of the kids there too
except for cousins who consider themselves "adults"
for tat freaking small matter my whole family have to
rush back to solve it.
you all just noe how to put blames on each other
and never actually come up with a best solution
inheritance is always the black sheep
your share and his share are already very magnificant
can't both of u just be contented and shut up abt the rest
both of you re constantly poking your noses
into other ppl's business
always making a big fuss out of something small
even me as your niece dun really respect the both of you
in certain way
seeing how your kids treat you during ah ma's funeral
makes me wonder do they really see both of you as their mothers
or they just treat both of you as somebody who provide them
with everything?
it is really perfectly fine if the matter was something big
then you needed my parents to rush bk immediately
but when i found out it was just that SMALL MATTER
i would have treated both of you to a nice long list of vulgarities
but thank god kiss the floor for both of you
i didnt....

2007-08-26T16:12:00.000+08:00

really hate it when i want to print stuffs
and my god dam bloody printer is down
with all sort of problems!
i want a new printer!!!!!
and another thing, i feel so not motivated
during weekends..i am just slacking ard
watching tv or doing something else
aHHHHHH!!!!!!
i noe promos is so ard the corner and i am
still like that!!!
I NEED MOTIVATIONS DURING THE WEEKENDS!!!

ok enough of my rantings...

2007-08-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

how much do you really noe abt that person?
alot? not much? or not at all?
being quite tight with you,make us want to care
more abt you...we treat you as a close friend
a simple concern from sam leads to you blaming her
for knowing too much in the first place
wat nonsense is that!
do you noe how difficult it is to keep the truth or rather
the stuffs we heard/found out from you
knowing wat kind of person you re, we just dun want you
to get hurt...
just a word from you, we tried to squeeze out time to solve
your problems..
that sentence that came out from your mouth really hurt us
not very much but to a certain extent still
somehow, it makes me wonder how worthy it is to you for all
the things we did for you....
or rather do you see us as your trustworthy friends esp Sam
deceptions dun hide everything, the more we can see thru u
we just choose not to disclose the truth
i hope you still retain a tiny portion of security in your r/s
with her
there is nothing much we can do and say since you chose to
believe her in the first place and be with her now....
just dun get yourself hurt...pls dun....
we really dun want to see that.....

2007-08-14T21:01:00.000+08:00

不能说的。秘密
Secret

'Follow the notes upon the journey
The road back hidden in the fast lane melody
The first sight is your destiny?
With the rapid movement began your incredible journey'

随着《Secret》优美的音符
穿越时空，来到1979年
你初恋应该存在的时代
你会就此放弃眼前所有的一切
一直陪伴她左右吗？

“能遇见你。。。
就已经是奇迹的了。。。”

2007-08-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

a lot of revision have yet to be done
getting into the revision mode
thank to the night study
gym concert was a blast
congrats to the gym ppl
for their hard work and efforts
and three cheers to miss giam
and miss teo!
zoo-visitng tmr for class outing
yes i am gng to the zoo ppl
not that we re deprived of childhood
memories but to explore new place
wells you will never noe..my class peeps
can go wild in there too
some of them can be comparable to
the animals there hahaha
we re just like little kids trapped in the
bodies of 17/18 years old
you can never imagine how kiddy we can be!
hahaha

just feel helpless..
seeing you lying to yourself again and again
dun you ever feel tired doing that?
coz i am.......

2007-07-31T21:46:00.000+08:00

i just found my all time favourite online again
woah!!!!!
i just read max's email abt tmr land trning
and his ending line was:
"if mdm wee asks you where re you gng,
pls say you dunno"
ahahaha now i really understand why athena
and cor can be so agitated by his act-coolness
coz he is totally hilarious lah ahahah
maris boy ah! ahahaha why so cute one ahahha!
tmr trning sounds fun but i think probably giving it a miss
coz got to go for cip briefing and the rehearsal...
this wk is really dam busy ah!!!!
study study!
chem test tday...shouldnt toke abt it!!

2007-07-29T15:07:00.000+08:00

really glad that the j2s enjoyed themselves
at farewell bbq yesterday
it was like an international buffet to them
and some more got ppl to serve them too lol
went to meet cor elaine and max at AMK
in the morning to buy barang-barangs
went max's hse to bake the muffins
had a great time laughing at e distorted muffins
we had all sort of shapes lah ahahha
after that rushed down to coach's condo in cab
with elaine to wait for them bbq person
we stoned quite a while before he came
saw MAc, KFC and pizza hut delivery
both decided to order mac coz we were
REALLY HUNGRY!!!!
but end up cor, max and athena bought for us
then eric came n we went into action
COOKING!!!!
the rest started to come
really had fun cooking and fighting over the pit
felt a sense of achievement esp during
the muffin eating part ahahha
seeing their surprised faces
finding out there is something inside every
distorted muffins
WOAH!! ahahaha

3 cheers to the caps and vice-caps
for the wonderful bbq farewell!

2007-07-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

getting the results really sux to the core
esp when your results aren't that fab
THe Mother will just nag and nag
constantly reminding you that the promos
are in like 1 mth ++ time and you better buck up
you only feel relax once you step out of the house
coz while in it equals totally breathless
your movements re totally restricted
and really have to think hard coming up with
excuses to come home late and now even CCA
is not passable reason for Her Majasty
but thank god for the night study starting from
next week,my ears wouldnt be suffering that much.
wells is only 2 mths+++ before freedom
ya rite 2 mths only :((

i really hate it when i had to act differently
in front of you...

2007-07-17T23:26:00.000+08:00

had been long after mid yr flew passed

got back the results
BSUEU
kinda of sucky and i dun like
shouldnt have gone for the LTC
ate up my study time YUCKS!
and somemore caused me to emo
need to chiong for promos liao
i realised nowadays i am eating alot
which is like not a good thing for me
trainings pls come quick or i will turn
into a pig!
had my post birthday celebration on sun
hahaha really a post (x10) one
yingwei, cheng, carol, nette got me a tote bag
from Espirit...really loves it (:
watched DIE HARD 4.0 today
omg it is really AWESOME!
all the actions and bombings and things like tat
it really made me go woah, ah and wooo from
the start of the movie till the end ahahha
needs to recommend it to daddy, he will
definitely love the movie too!

PTM on sat, i hope it will turn out fine...

Thank for the love(:

2007-07-12T23:16:00.000+08:00

Swim nationals officially ended yesterday
saw the fight between the raffles and the AC
woah a tough one indeed!
i think the best part of yesterday was the
TEAM DINNER at vill'age
celebrated coach carol birthday too=)
at first she thought that we will have just
simple dinner but in the end hahhah!
we bought her cake ,sang the birthday dam loud
and we even ate the cake in the yam-sheng way!
ahahha..i was scared that the ppl will just throw us out
for being too noisy...
then come the de-brief wells it is more of a reflection time
being the most emotional one in the team
(i proudly proclaim that title)
i cried...couldnt hold it back.....
i was laughing and crying at the same time,
i totally look idiotic hahahaha
some of us brave ones took turns to say something
and i was really touched with wat they said...

to the swim team:
i am really really proud to be in the team...
i didnt start out as a sch swimmer so i dunno
alot of things but you all took time to correct and
direct me and also the encouragements from all of you
really help me to hold on till today...
due to my old injuries and cramps every now and then
i felt that i was actually holding the whole team back
but instead you all will come and ask me am i alrite
and things like that even though most of you are alrdy
"half-dead" from the hell-like trainings...
so ya i am really thankful for that
and really loves you all very much=)

nette kho:
i am glad that i sign up for the swim team
together with you and had never regret since....
thank for all the encouragments every now and then
really meant alot to me=)
thank you is all i can express myself...
i am so gng to miss you at trainings....plus bel and avril 2..
loves:)

elaine kho:
although you always suan me but i still love you anyway
lol...

to all the J3s and both coaches:
thank for being there for us whenever you can
the supports and encouragements we really can feel it!

My love, my family=)
cj swim team

2007-07-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

got a B for Math
i am happy not becoz my hard work
pays off but i am glad that i didnt
disappoint anyone
hearing them telling me
"Xuan i am proud of you!"
just give me the power
to hold on somemore
my class on the whole did well for math
to those who did not get their targeted
grade, dun be discouraged! Jia You!
the rest of the papers are coming bk soon
and i really have no predictions
abt the grades but i hope i can scrap thru..

looking forward to the team dinner on wed
as well as the chalet on fri -CHERIE YEAP!!!
and the rest of the girlies!

2007-07-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY
my nats results were a disaster
mentioning it again makes me emo
really happy to see the whole gang
came down to support me :D

FRIDAY
couldnt go and support the team
but happy to noe that corinne got
into the final and i have yet to find
out the results of the free relay
went for STC's SYF showcase
really a great show esp the dance parts
wells i admit i am being biased
i was only really awoke when the syf
dances were performed on stage lol
modern dance was the best!
i was actually moved by the music
and the steps
it was BRAVO!!!
it really make want to dance again!

Today
went back to M'sia to attend
my cousin's wedding
really happy to see all my aunties and
uncles + my both sets of grandparents
although we hardly see each other
but i can feel the closeness within us
and we dun feel uneasy among them
even though my cousins are always
suprise to see two more cousins popped
out from nowhere everytime lol
they can't even rmb having one more auntie
who is my mum existing in the family! hahahaha

oh ya by the way i meet one old friend on my
way to sch
wells it should be i finally talk to her
i am glad that she is finally opening herself up
and she is really changing
it may have been long but at least she took
that effort to do so!

2007-07-03T21:17:00.000+08:00

looking at the limited 4c photos i have
i want time to turn back again
this is like the nth time i want to do that
but still i really miss them...
misses the ppl like pei, meiyi who although
are in cj but we hardly see each other
misses ppl like devaki,cass who are
in other jcs...
misses ppl like jess, lala who re in poly
misses ppl like cherie and mich who re in
aust and england respectively
okok i misses the class peeps and
also the closest ones...
oh my i sound like an old granny who is
gng to "cross over to the light" soon
hahaha

2007-07-03T12:23:00.000+08:00

events for today:
50m back
200m back
100m breast
100m butterfly

i am practically rushing thru this
coz my mum is actually screamin
her head off to hurry me to bathe
hahaha...
Chem Spa in 2 hrs' time
and today is the start of the swim Nats
might not have time to rush down to support
the girls and boys coz dam spa ends ard 3.15
and their events are like ard 2 plus
which is during my spa...
opps my mum is screaming again hahaha
ciao...

2007-06-30T14:18:00.000+08:00

exams finally over :)
left A level chem spa..
nationals coming close...
whoo...
went for training then
to shawn's birthday bbq
ate like a hungry ghost on release
hahahaha
had fun just to see
the same old jokers in class
like hisham,shawn etc
definitely miss their nonsenses
very much...
wat a thing to miss rite hahah
haiyo...hahaha

2007-06-24T22:16:00.000+08:00

miss cherie yeap
touched down from aust yesterday :D:D:)))
tmr is the start of J2 mids :(
the day after is J1 :((
*$#?*&6 some J2 finished on tues
2 DAYS ONLI for my ex-combin :((((
nationals is next week
50m&200m com fall on the same day
5th july, thurs afternoon:D :(
cousin wedding on 7th july:D
this reminded me that
i need to buy my black pumps
and to alter my corset top

from wat you read above...it shows that
i am so not ready for my judgement day
i.e. EXAMINATIONS

2007-06-23T21:36:00.000+08:00

I left 1/4 of econ to understand or maybe in
exact to memorise...and that so totally sucks
coz i am not even sure if i did memorise
watever i suppose to in the previous topics
argh!!!!!!!
and one more thing...
APPARENTLY...I MISS ALL THE WOMEN
IN 3/4 ST CLARE OF 05/06
like reaally really alot alot!!!!!
ST CLARE ROCKS!!!

2007-06-21T19:00:00.000+08:00

i think i must have turned into
some sort of shopholic
becoz of all the mega or mini sales
gng ard in town...
went to town with fong and ling
had been really a year since i last
saw them...they didnt change much
ahahah as crazy as usual ahahaha
was sort of craving for sushi
so i practically beg them to go
sushi tei with me for lunch ahahaa
sat there for 2 hrs? lol
talked about wat we did in pri sch
setting up this childish "letter club",
all the childish fights among us and also
with others...trying hard to rmb e names
of some classmates and imagining how
they look like now compared to then
sharing current affairs with each other...
i really want to get a vest so went ard hereen
after lunch then to topshop at wisma...
saw this corset suit at half price at topshop
but was too big for me...
so went over to mng at isetan
and like fong and ling said i practically
went crazy in there ahahah
SALES LEH!!! MNG SALES!!!
everything in there like cheaper by more than
50% lah !
saw this really cute betty boop top so chopchop
grab it coz it is like 19 bucks?!
was trying to squeeze myself ard the other women
when i saw my favourite white corset suit
at 1st was 6o bucks and now is only like 39 bucks lah!
totally love at 1st sight! actually was comtemplating
whether to buy it previously
when i saw it at the mng branch in Lido
thank to the sale it is hanging in my closest now lol
wanted to get a blue checked one too but becoz of my
yr-end shopping sprees, resisted the temptations
felt really sorry coz i made fong and ling to wait for me
outside and happily shopped inside ahaha
shopping helped me de-stress and
meeting old friends just bring back wonderful memories
memories that you thought you had long forgotten
but actually it is kept secretly safe in you.....

2007-06-17T18:52:00.000+08:00

i had been cooping myself at home
attempting to stick my butt on my chair
and to stick my eyes to the notes
but apparently i stick my eyes
to the tv screen and my lappie more ahaha
but hey i got study k!
will be out to catch a breath on thurs
out on a date with my long time friends:)
have been very long since we meet up
hahaha you can use years to describe it
-guilty feeling-

on a lighter note
mummy and aunt had already started planning
for our yr-end hols
we will be flying over to taiwan then hk
oh my mamas! shopping time man!
wolalalala! :D
time to save kachings!

i am kinda of excited for math paper
i m crazy man! i am actually saying this
when i still have 2.5 more topics for chem
and not even half way thru econ!
i am dead ! shoot me pls someone!

2007-06-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

For All Time
Soluna

You've been the first in my life
Who has ever made me feel this way
And I will not deny
I'm gonna need you right here
By my side
Baby, I can wait
(come and hold my hand and let me lead the way)
Let me take your breathe away
(by holdin' and kissin' and lovin' and touchin' you)
Never will be too late (see myself through your eyes)
Baby, I can wait (until the day I hear you say)
-CHORUS-
You are mine
There's no other one for me
Keep in mind
You make my life complete
And tonight
We'll make love endlessly
Cuz you're mine
You're the one that I'll keep For all time
Now that you're here, boy
I'm never gonna let you go
Can I touch you there, oh
Do you mind if we kiss real slow
You're my everything
You're my hopes and dreams
Baby, you know it ain't no lie
I'm gonna be with you till the day I die
Baby, I can wait
(come and hold my hand and let me lead the way)
Let me take your breathe away
(holdin' and kissin' and lovin' and touchin' you)
Never will be too late (see myself through your eyes)
Baby, I can wait (no no, til the day I hear you say)

-CHORUS-

You're the one that lights my fire
You're the one that keeps me strong
You're the one that I depend on
When my world is goin' wrong
You're the one that I hold closer
You're the man I'm dreaming of
And I really really love you
I just want you to know that

-CHORUS 2X-

I can't wait till the day I hear you say
You're the one that I need
You're the one that I'll keep For all time

2007-06-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

inter-jc meet today..
at ITE Simei
Team Cj improve alot as compared
to last year...we kinda of own the rest
hahaha..
i am quite happy with my 100m br timing
1.44s! but if i didnt plunge too deep
i will have a faster timing so
i am happy but still not content lol
but my 200m timing is like shit
lousy to the core of the earth lol
3.50s leh! faints
coach msged to ask for the timings
thought that i will get scoldings from her
coz normally during trainings, i am
considered the weaker ones
but instead she told me abt my
improvements and other stuffs
really felt motivated and kinda of
reassured myself about all the hard works
and sweats i made to improve...
next is the NAtionals swim..woah!!

Kudos to cj swim team, we did really well today!

to tyrant lai
okies i admit i "neglected" you haha
(this sound so wrong! )
but rest assure you will be in my
check list always yap :)
and one more thing..
i never really thank you for alot of stuffs
dere will never be enough words or
sentences to do that so i will just use
a big "THANK YOU" to express myself
i hope you noe wat i mean:))
THANK YOU!

2007-06-10T20:16:00.000+08:00

accident-pro...
wells i have to admit tat i am one
becoz i just hurt myself again today
and this time is one of my toe....
this is bad.... really bad...
another thing..
i dun really like how i m feeling now
and is all becoz of wat you saytat day
shit lah!
left 2 freaking weeks to study
ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-09T16:06:00.000+08:00

i dunno wat had got into my mind nowadays
i will just simply sit down on my bed at night
and start to stone at the same time gng thru
some recollection of memories like old Ah Mas
but i am glad dere re more memorable ones
instead of the bad ones....
is it normal for people to start reflecting on
their lives after entering a new phase of life?
i have friend who is in nj now, we were rather
close in pri sch and ppl would often see us
sticking together
but one day she just changed totally
people said it was just her true self
that true self which she hid from me long ago
n was stupid to be her friend,a close one
somemore but i actually thought otherwise...
so we drifted apart..went to diff sec sch and jc
hwver just recently, she dropped me a comment
on friendster saying that she will say hi when
she sees me in the same bus in the future....
i realli have the strong urge to ask her wat makes
her feel like doing that since she had always been
treatin me as a complete stranger whenevr we see
each other at the bus stop....
is she trying to amend something?

wells i should stop my rantings...

2007-06-08T16:47:00.000+08:00

i am back to true civilisation finally!
was away for at least 4 days for LTC
wells attending the camp is like...
having reality check??...
wells...people outshining each other
and proving their abilities..
i was really tired after the camp
not becoz of the activities and the lack
of sleep but apparently the people there
howver like wat perry told me
"ignore them,just care abt your life and friends!"
had class outing at night really happy to see
my dear classmates but my mood was kinda of
affected by the camp so ya....

dear bestfriend pei,
thank you for everything you had done for me
always there around my side supporting me
i am glad we knew each other for years i can say
and went thru much thick and thin together
thank you so much pei han.....

2007-06-02T23:18:00.000+08:00

ELLO FOLKS!!!
wells i am officially 18 since
the clock strikes at 12 am yesterday
LEGAL LEGAL LEGAL!! ahaha
olive, yo, sam and shawn celebrated
with me at chomp chomp and not to 4get
mei yi who was mentally with us hahaha,
she was one of the planners:) )
ahaha yes was at chomp chomp,
sam even sang moi a birthday song !
before sam n shawn finally arrived,
yo,olive and me were like monster unleashed
i.e. feasting like nobody business!
and yes i finally step into chomp chomp like
some country pumpkin lol
have our usual large portion of gossips and
random jokes too...felt so good!
oh ya received wishes from friends too:)

so today i spent half of my birthday day
helping my godma's sis to pack her new hse
quite fun actually lol
coz i have my portion of laughters and gossips
over there too!
and mummy dearest whipped up nice dishes
wat can i say, i am satisfied hahaha

Once again thank you my friens for all the wishes
and presents...
i am a happy girl becoz all of you made me happy:)

2007-05-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

I hereby proclaim myself as the
"MIss Knee-spoil always"
lol yes my knee is injured again
or rather i had made the injury worsen
hahaha i am praying hard for it to heal
MIRACLELY...(0.001% i.e)evryday
wells....i am suppose to be onli checking
the answers online for the math revisions ws
but here am i blogging ahahaha and doing
something else hahaha
i am still thinking whether i should go training
tmr and just train my upper body for the time bein
or to just stay at home to study?
and this just reminded me i seem to be very busy
for this june hols and really need to draw up a schedule
to study...erm...there gone by hols..

ps: thank you thank you thank you hanif and inez for the
advanced bdate present! really love it! :)

2007-05-27T11:44:00.000+08:00

two papers down now
and three more to go
so the month of june is secretly arrving
which means that for the j2
Prelim and A level are arriving to
their doorsteps like real soon..
really hope they re coping well...
and it also mean that i only have
less than half a year to see them...
wells ppl do prepare boxes of tissues
for me when their graduation day comes
lol coz i will definitely need them...

another thing, i am like turning 18
in a week or so ,like whoa!
the feeling of turning 18
does excited me for a while but after
that the excitement just subsides
maybe is becoz things re different now...

something from my sis's teacher:
"students, pls rmb that june holiday re like
normal school days just at a slower pace..."
so wat can we say about that, teachers ah!

2007-05-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

aaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
i am gng crazy!!!!!
now the only sub i am confident is maths
the rest like gng to fail AHHHHH!!!
i am dam scared
the feeling is like worse than
doing bunjee jumping
although i haven done it
and the bloody gp and lit exams
have to be this week!
the cold and fever bugs re attacking me too
every morning feels like chopping my nose off
and my voice is bad too
i feel emo....
i think i am too stressed
my aunt just told me if i really cannot take it
she will immediately help me apply for a position
in her airline and work as a airstewardess
since that job can earn alot of kachings and i can
learn a lot of things
hahahaha if i really do, next time you all may see
me asking: " Sir/Madam, what would you like?
coffee, tea or water?"
EEEEEEE!!!! i can't imagine me doing that
OMG!!!!

2007-05-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

although t37 was badly trashed by t33
but we were dam strong in other matches
and got third in the end
i totally uphold the position of a GS!
i scored in a number of goals lah
even jordan said that i own that semi-circle lol
really need to say a big thank-you to ppl
like curry pok (sam) -kept tellin me not to afraid
jordan-a pat on the back ,eliza who kept telling me
"i am so proud of you" after every matches
and of course the rest like perry, liling, jeremy
who played and defended very well
not to forget the rest of t37 who cheered hard
hahaha i felt the bond man!
loves them totally! :)

wat you said just totally brighten up my life today :)

2007-05-17T21:27:00.000+08:00

i simply dun understand
why a person can behave like that
since u want to show us that
your life is completely upside down
why dun u jus tell us?
i dun mind you screaming or shouting
at the top of your lungs about your
so-called pathetic life rather than
showing your emo-black face to us
with your usual ritual of moaning abt
your life evry once a month
u re just simply testing the limits
and i can tell u that the limits are up
wells maybe not for most of them
but definitely for moi!
dun u feel sick and tired with it?
we jus want to help u but
u chose to push us away
so how do u expect us to help u?
i really feel like slapping u
gazillion times or
to drown u in cold water
to woke u up
woke up pls! WOKE UP!
if u ever read this, u may think
tat i'm like a total bitch
but u re really too much, it is
getting on my nerves and people re
kinda of affected by your behaviour
so do u think is time to stop all your
nonsense and get on with your life?

when you can't even respect your own self
how do you expect us to respect you?

2007-05-12T13:22:00.000+08:00

《暧昧》-杨丞琳

暧昧让人受尽委屈找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃连拥抱都没有勇气
只能陪你到这里毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣想太多是我还是你我很不服气
也开始怀疑眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你
暧昧让人受尽委屈找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局放遗憾的美丽停在这里

really feel like telling you everything
but i really have no courage to do so
feel like crying but i simply can't do so....

2007-05-08T21:10:00.000+08:00

i am gng to fail!
i am gng to fail!
i am gng to fail!
you noe fail wat
IS TODAY'S CHEM CT!
oh oh oh well done xuan!
it will be very nice to see digits on the test paper
but on sec thought isnt zero a digit too?!
oh mamas! yucks! eeeeeee!
bernard yong is really out to kill!
my frindges is still a laughing stock
or maybe a thing that trigger laughters
yucks yucks
i am an ugly girl for at least a month!:(
lol!
econ is getting difficult i can't visualise e situations
math is the only fun one
gp essay sucks to the core coz i got a difficult topic
lit- still okies
chem- i am still trying to handle it well
ahhhhhh!!!!!!!! i need to chiong!
and i want to go diving in june!

pei: you can do it girl! have confidence in yourself!
meiyi: wat a sight to see you in cast , you look less terrifying lol!
xuan's friends: hello ppl i miss you all! :)

2007-05-05T17:12:00.000+08:00

things seem to zoom pass me very fast nowadays
H1 exam is coming soon
and the rest are coming towards me in fast speed
lol
stuffs happened in class and should not elaborate
i cut my frindges and it looks horrible
wells no choice i just have to wait till it grow longer
sleeping bugs re always attacking me esp during
mr fahy's lessons and i feel so hardworking coz i had
been studying in the library or somewhere in sch
during my breaks with sam lee sometime perry and
jordan too... lol
class jerseys coming i hope it will turn out well..
should stop my rantings then...

2007-05-02T22:44:00.000+08:00

had a mini class outing to the mindcafe yesterday
we had hell lots of fun there
and we spent lots of kachings dere too lol
and i finally see RACHEL AND REGINA!!!!
ahhhhh!!!!! ahahaha
cam-whored AS USUAL !
i love them totally!

:)

i am happy becoz of what you said today
even though you may not mean it that way
i am sad when i see you emo
makin you smile becomes my goal of the day
from now on...

2007-05-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

i seriously dun want to use that word
coz it dun really exist in my dictionary
but i am gng to use it now
FUCK that person who hacked into
my friendster account! wat the hell!
if i ever find out who is that person
i am so gng to screw tat person upside down
left and right , front and back!
you really have nothing better to do is it!
what the hell!
you just spoil my day totally!
you fucker or bitch!

2007-04-27T20:54:00.000+08:00

Asking yourself whether he's right for you
can actually stop you from loving him
you probably don't love him enough....

2007-04-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

sometime i really wondering if
everything re pre-destined by THE MAN above
my actions, the words that come out from my mouth
and of course the people i meet....

stuffs happened and i emo-ed today
which i hardly do
told sam lee tat i got the strong urge
to toke to my close friends at tat time
and one by one they like pop out "suddenly" lol
saw the front 5 ppl during break
sat with them and toke awhile...
they told me to relax and ignore, dun so stress up
went back to class and wanted to msg bestie
on second thought didnt want to disturb her with tat
but ta-da! saw her and jenny in the toilet how nice!
told her and jenny bits and pieces abt it
even though toilet isnt a really good place to toke lol!
later both of us msged and
promised to meet up during june
i really need to catch up with her and nat toos....

had been training hard and studying hard...
the feeling of failing just made me feel bad
and i just want to get rid of that...
and i am lacking of sleep too
sleep sleep sleep....

i am grateful for the people that crossed my path
and decided to stay on side by side with me
i am happy that i am in the swim team
even though i do complain at times that i
shouldnt have join in the 1st place lol
i am glad.....

PS: watching the conversation between the 2 coaches and michael
with the rest of the swimmers popping out sometime
= a true entertainment lol!

2007-04-21T16:12:00.000+08:00

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so ya i'm helping him by giving free shout-outs!

2007-04-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

nowadays,
"wat time am i be able to go home"
is the most impt qns i ask myself everyday
2nd will be " do i have the time to complete my work?"
whoolala busy-ness is wat i can feel everyday lah
busy busy like a working bee haha

coach carol sent us like thousand over emails
over the weekends
so is like whenever i open my inbox
dere sure to be her emails
so came our first REALLY serious training on Monday

training set:
800m WU
2x400m Pulls
mental skill training
16x100m on 2.30
4x25m sprints with start
200m WD

Total dist:3500m

guess wat, we SURVIVED!that mean dere re more to come
faints!

tmr training set:
800m WU
12x50m kick 1:30
mental skill trainin
3x10x50m (on 1:30-1:20-1:15 within 10s PB)
4x25m sprints (turns)
200WD

cross my toes and fingers that i can make it
and survive!
better sleep now or else i will die during training:(

2007-04-11T20:59:00.000+08:00

busy busy and more busy
is wat i experienced for these past few weeks
cramming my nut brain with chem and econ notes for the tests
training hard to get into the sch nats team
squeezing in time to do my tutorials
and like a mama "screaming" at my class ppl
to go here and dere
plus reminding them to bring/do this and that
i never had been so busy last yr
well at least it forces me to plan my time
instead of wondering wat i should do next
today's trial is damm saddening for me
my timing for 100 breast actually increase by 2SEC
how saddening is that!
even though coach does put me in the nats team
i still want my timing to drop at least to a 1:40
i should psycho myself to achieve that ahahaha

i miss bestie!!! i hardly see her in sch now
miss her terribly!!!!

2007-04-07T19:41:00.000+08:00

2007-04-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

i just finish my bloody lit essay
suppose to write 700 words but
heck lah i wrote well erm i typed 649 words
it is close anyway
i am hungry now feel like feasting on kfc, mac, moss burger
well practically all the fast foods
NOT I CANNOT COZ I WILL GROW FAT!
thinking back since when getting fat has become an impt
issue for me? i wonder...

this post is seriously random coz i am bored
good luck to bio students for their A level spa tmr
oh god they have to catch crickets! ah!!!!!!

oh to all my friendlies, xuan will be in M'sia for the next 3 to 4 days
will get chewy gums and see got any other cute stuffs...
miss moi!

2007-04-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

one moment i thought i had got over the issue
but the next moment i accidentally heard ppl talking abt it
in the toilet somemore
"you mean she retain ah?"
that's it! i am still upset over it,terribly some more
i am upset becoz there re still ppl out dere bring the retaining issue up
even the teachers dun why should you!
if you really want to noe just come up to my face and ask
i wouldnt hesitate to ans you
you will regret being foe with me instead of friend

on the lighter note, sam bought me donut oh i love ahaha!
well loves the donut and her ahahah
went to pei's blog, saw the 4c clique pic taken during taman trip
and ya i miss them very much to the extent i hope time reverse
well at least for a day also can..

when you realise time will never turn back for you
then it is time to do something now for the people ard and also
for yourself

2007-04-01T20:46:00.000+08:00

The father is in extreme good mood today
first he suggested going to jurong point for lunch
which he seldom do that
and next he bought us a hi-fi set!
we were at harvey norman and
i was comtemplating whether to buy one as i got to pay for it
suddenly the father just agreed paying for the one
which is even more expensive
i was like woah! am i dreaming anot? ahahaha

so now i need to announce: Daddy l love you! ahahaaha
Ps: i still love you even if you didnt buy us the hi-fi set
but i love you even more coz you bought us one ahahaha:)

next week gonna be a busy wk, got ptm duties,econ test
but got holiday! ahahaha that's random

2007-03-31T16:10:00.000+08:00

The stomach is still on protest
whenever and where ever it can
and i tell you the pain is unbearable
i can't eat anything i want
be it spicy or oily
and i can only drink water plain water
chosen my events for coach
100m free and breast, 50m free, 200m breast
all i can say is i am brave enough to put 200m in
and putting 50m in is just to fill up the space only ahahaha

oh ya yesterday X-campus relay was a bomb
although we re at the 4th place but i am so proud of the runners
they really run like they never run before ahahaha
all the butterflies were flying in my stomach ahahaha
T29 did well too coming in the 7th place!
3 cheers for them!
if there was an award for the best supporting class
i think t37 will sure get it lah
coz we really scream our lungs out ahaha
ivan told us he could even hear us across the big field ahahah

oh oh today and tmr will be the junior race for yo and olive
all the very best for them !:)

2007-03-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

stomach flu is definitely not a joke
having to feel the stomach muscle contracting into a ball
for the whole day is terriblely a torture
and somemore cannot even laugh loudly during mr T's lesson
is a sad thing is torture (x1000)
gazillion thank to jeremy and fengheng
for helping me to get the pills
i have wonderful classmates :)

2007-03-24T15:43:00.000+08:00

fun fun day yesterday
mass pe = 8 rounds and countless of push-ups,sit-ups,jumping jacks
land training-physical conditioning
and off we went to coach hse for bbq
was suppose to be j1 welcoming thingy hahaha
in the end no of j1s < no of j2s
we celebrated avril and nette bdate too
i realised everytime we have the bbq, dere is sure to have hilarious stuffs
and we will laugh like no body business
last yr was the pooh bear drama,yesterday was the "saving the ball" drama
elaine and i were so hungry that we actually stationed ourselves near the pit
so that we can grab the food the moment it is ready hahaha
coach alex and coach carol gave us a mini motivation talk too
well the bbq is like a bonding session for the swimmers and coaches
really enjoyed myself...
get to noe the new people and spent more time with the j2 who re leaving soon

the urge of telling you my feeling
is getting stronger and stronger each day

2007-03-22T22:08:00.000+08:00

this is random but i just rmb jordan is so gng to get his favourite drink
paid by me either tmr or on monday
coz i challenged him to shoot in 500 basketballs within an hr
how idiotic i can be forgeting that is his field of talent -roll eyes-
well i just haf to say bye-bye to my 70 cents...

tmr is so gng to be a FUN day
mass pe then land training+game after sch then bbq at coach hse
i will be losing all the jingling fats then gain them again
at the end of the day, it makes no diff.

i just can't let you go....

2007-03-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

i am a happy girl
because you re the reason that
makes me happy:)

2007-03-18T19:17:00.000+08:00

my current position: cine level 9 koolpix
nette, elaine, kenneth,corinne,zonghan n jeremy visited me jus now
they had a surprise gathering for corinne's birthday
took neoprints haha made the guys wear the costumes ahaha totally hilarious

so tmr is monday= back to sch day
well... for the J2s it gonna be even more hectic for them as for the J1s
it will be still fun for one more day coz we re gng dragon-boating before
we bury our heads into the notes for mid-yr exams
i just rmb something hahaha i haven think of the design for the class flag
hai ya heck i am sure i will be able to produce it before the deadline...

it is seriously a blessing to have you all by my side
although we dun really have the time to meet each other
but the sweet msgs that i received every now and then
are the motivations of my life :)

to corinne: happy 17th! loves:)

2007-03-16T21:36:00.000+08:00

being a couch potato for almost a week have made my brain screw loose
why did i say so? well judging from the "incident" i had in the afternoon

mummy dearest cooked porridge for lunch today since meimei was out
and we didnt feel like feasting on "fabulous"food from outside (takeaways)
after finishing 2 big bowls i went into my room and came out again
so here comes the idiotic part

Me: MUMMY!!!!!!!!!!
Mummy: yes? (replying calmly some more while she poured a bowl of water into a pot)
Me:WHY RE YOU POURING WATER INTO THE POT OF PORRIDGE???!!!!
Mummy: can you pls open up your big eyes and look ard, missy

so i looked ard and i saw the pot of porridge sitting nicely on the dinning table
Me: hahahaha you cannot blame me lah all your pots look similar!

this is wat happen to me when i completely forgone my brain for just a few days only
faints!

2007-03-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

i had a silly conversation with my sis just now

Me: for god's sake the steps i taught you re very easy already
Mei: HELLO! to you, yes i think so but to me is a big NO-NO!
Me: pls dun tell anybody that your sis was a dancer for 10 yrs pls pls!
Mei: for your infor, some of friens don't even noe you existed...

hahahha i actually laughed over it...oh wells my meimei can be hilarious sometimes
how can her frenz don't noe my existence when i am always the one answering her calls

and i predicted that she will get a D for her dance class
(provided that her instructor is kind) ahahahha

2007-03-13T13:29:00.000+08:00

we like shooting for some poster like tat ahahaha

T15 ignite!

2007-03-12T19:09:00.000+08:00

i finally have the time to change my blogskin after getting feedbacks from Yo and Rachel
ahaha i hope it is view-able now as compared to the previous one
things re changing ard friends and myself too
hope we have the strength to overcome them )):
something happy to note:
my timings like improved lah ok ok although it maybe still consider lousy for the pro ones
but i am happy abt it ahhaha and that will do :>

2007-03-10T14:31:00.000+08:00

can i say rockafella 3 was a blast ?
hahaha
the whole of t15 went crazy and high
although there were a few bands that
put me to lalaland a few times
but there were a few that made me go gaga!
they were just awesome!
my 2 dearies came too
i concluded that sa does not
have enough laughing gases for them
the moment they step into cj
they started laughing their heads off
ahaha
i found a good spot to emo in cjc
beside the grandstand
that is the unsheltered grandstand
sitting dere listening to boyzone or blue
haha that is random oh wells...

O2 didnt really start out that fantastic
afterall too close to my t29 and t15 ahaha
so i will kinda of disappear for a while
every now and then ahaha
but thank the floor coz i got back my whole class
and we re known as T37
ahahaha
and and my new classroom is spacious
most importantly, it is so near to t29 ahaha
yoyo said the corner will be our front 5's
nu lang zhi nu bridge ahahaha

your presence and smile made me feel love

2007-03-06T17:27:00.000+08:00

Friends at school
Are big and small.
Friends at school
Are best of all!

i am starting to miss all of you already!
better come back for Rockafella, friens!

2007-03-04T17:31:00.000+08:00

biathlon was fun this morning
after that cabbed down with zonghan to town
wat he said in the cab
made me wonder should i change my mind
or i just stick with the usual plan
anyways

i just made val's day not long ago thru MSN

Xuanie says:
val!!!!!!!!!!!
Xuanie says:
hahaha
Valerie says:
WEIXUUUAAANN
Valerie says:
:)
Xuanie says:
love you ahaha
Valerie says:
OMG dont make my cry
Valerie says:
i love you too!!
Xuanie says:
hahaha
Xuanie says:
you wouldnt cry
Xuanie says:
you will just beam with joy:>

i am adorable sometime i must admit hehe

it is so difficult to say goodbyes...

2007-03-03T20:46:00.000+08:00

class outing today
not really a class
onli a bunch of us
and mr isaac yee came along too
ahhaa i was kind of bad enough to ask sam
"eh why is he here ah?"
went to LJS to eat lunch
ivan told us abt gng to his uncle hse for
soccer watching and bbq
then rachel suggested crashing the bbq
isaac seems reluctant to go
so jordan said:
"you dunno how to watch soccer is it?
never mind i can teach you!"
totally dunno wat to say abt him lah
ahaha

then to toy'r us
oh my goodness
we seriously went crazy in dere
getting amazed and amused
with the toys
i must say the kids nowadays
re very fortunate
the toys re totally cool lah!

went ben & jerry
I SAW CLARRISA!
she works dere and i totally
forgot she had graduated from stc
i still ask her "aren't you sec 4 this yr?"
ahaha stupid rite ahaha

got to go back for dinner so left the rest
while they waiting to go to ivan's uncle hse
for soccer watching and bbq

photos:http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2094919158

i really dunno wat to say
sometime you just misunderstand wat i want to convey
that phrase is just a phrase that i find it meaningful
it doesnt reflect wat i am feeling
seriously ...

2007-03-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

3 months are coming to an end
our class onli left 2 pathetic days
to be noe as 1T15'07
the bond that we formed is
UNDESCRIBABLE

i'm gng to miss
my dear rachel and sam how
always making me go crazy
EVERYDAY without fail:>

Val,Rhian,Liling
they re the one who
give me the "goosebumps"
making my ego swell ahaha
EVERYDAY without fail of course:)

the chiobu-s like inez, eliza, sam lee, jamie..
they re seriously chio each in their own way lah
so jealous ahahha

and of course the 2 clowns behind me in class
PErry and Jordan
their jokes and idiotic conversations never
fail to make me laugh like mad woman
everytime turn ard, wanting to shut them up
but becoz they give me the innocent looks
esp that jordan tan, i will end up shutting myself up
ahahaha

with these people ard, i feel at ease in class
like totally
thank T15! loves you all to the core!

one more thing, saying that i love T15
doesnt mean tat i dun love T29 hor ahhaa
equal share hehehe

interclass captain ball on mon
-classes playing with us do wait to be owned

and class outing at vivo city haaha
shopping time!

2007-02-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

i miss my girlies and guylies !
miss them badly!
we need decent lunch or dinner dates!
hope they re doing fine with their studies!
loves them:)

i dun DRINk becoz i want to noe when i'm having a good time:)

2007-02-25T18:12:00.000+08:00

BIG HELLOS!
dong dong chiang is gng away day by day
ang baos...not tat alot
wells...
the result of not having much relatives in S'pore
the number is close to a handful

backtrack...
just came back from M'sia
ate and drank like a pig
watched DVDs like never before
acted hardworking
actually studied with my cousin and sis
with constant disturbances from my cousin's cousins
read up on econ, flipped thru my math notes
and did one qns for chem tutorial
as for gambling...it was a NO-NO-:)
ahaha..why
coz learnt tat my luck for gambling
is close onli 5%
after tat day at jordan's hse ahaha
i won only like 6 bucks plus
$4 of which was the amt
i lost for the previous games
so ya earned onli $2 something
according to Profit Incentive in Econ
i should have increased my supply (of kachings)
in order to earned more profit ahaha

strangers met and form friendships
which lead a long way down
gonna miss you all girlies and guys!

olive and meiyi asked me a qns on fri
"which class do you actually prefer?
T29 or T15?"

my ans: i am really lucky to be in these 2 classes:)

2007-02-15T23:09:00.000+08:00

so there goes the valentine
and say hellos to gong xi gong xi
a big thank you to my girlies for their little gifts
and classmates too
greatly appreciated! and not to forget the tags too
i actually walked ard with them
pin onto my sleeves the whole day!
hahaha
valentine day is the day
where you not only celebrate love but of course
the long lasting friendships
to me they re my source of survival :)

Once again happy birthday bestie!

2007-02-11T16:42:00.000+08:00

i swear IJC is gazillion miles away
from the woodlands mrt station
on the surface it looks near though
i walked till my feets gave way
and anyway i get to meet nat and yingwei
yingwei has never changed a single bit
just the same old yingwei ahaha
booked her for the yr end gathering already
tat woman is gng to china,haerbin lah!
trained to town with yo and bestie
on the way met audrey, their canoe friend
for retail therapy...-wide grin-
bought a top from topshop
the babydoll top tat i wanted was gone
and i have yet to get suspenders and shorts
bought pei her present too
and the best thing is, v day presents i haven get yet
oh i am so so so screwed!

congrats ppl well done for the results! -thumbs up-

ciao back to econ revision, or should i say starting it ahah

2007-02-08T22:52:00.000+08:00

x-country-ed yesterday
i quite enjoyed it
and i cannot believe i can actually
finish it hahah another achievement for this yr
woah! 1T15 came in third overall in the j1 level
and we get to have pizza treats from Mr A.Ho
but i wonder when haha

i cannot wait for sat to come!
i am joining bestie and yoyo for the IJc funfair
woah! get to see my beloved Nat and auntie yingwei (hehe)
then we re gng for our retail therapy yipee! hahaha
long time didnt shop with them liao
can't wait!

my god i am still digesting the news got from bestie
i totally cannot believe it
or i should say she will be the last person tat i will think
of to be involved in this scandal
the characters in the news totally just ruin their own careers
woo....

PPL! GOOD LUCK FOR TMR !
PLS DO COME BACK TO CJ! AHAHA

the pictures are taking ages to be uploaded!

2007-02-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

GARA GUNI-ED on sunday
fun and tiring
gerard said the no of ppl we met on sunday
is totally equal to the no of ppl MP meets for a month
hahaha...yea yea...totally agree
yolanda bday on monday
she is officially 18 which legal to do anything
hahahaha

anyway days went by as usual
with laughters and madness in class
plus mrs sng's "getting up from the wrong side of the bed" sydrome
and plus helpin to hunt for eye candies
for the girlies in my class
F.O.C some more hahaha
O level results out on fri
cross fingers for the J1s...

Oh i found out abt kenny's ahem today
i have no comment abt it..really...
ever since i saw who the person is...

CROSS COUNTRY TMR!! = RUN TILL YOU DROP DEAD
AFTER THE FINISH LINE!!!

yeah i will get to eat awfully chocolate cakes on 1st day of CNY!
i noe is sinful but who cares! hahaha oops!

"He was my North, my South and east and west
My working week, and my sunday rest
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song
I thought that love could last forever, i was wrong"

2007-02-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

chem CA today was saddening
i was emo-ing for abt 10 mins
and be myself again after my favourite sunny side-ups
haha
i probably be gng to get 4 or 5 marks for it
but i win jordan anyway coz he said he gng to get 2 or 3
hahaa

i sat in for the most hilarious math re-test ever today
i was planning to sit dere, only to open my mouth when
neccessary but in the end i just told rachel the steps
and i was so anxious to tell her the ans tat i just
shout it out- and guess wat mr lee was just standin
in front of us haha
but anyway he just laughed his head off haha

sucker: i hope you re feeling better now :) dun be angry k
anger makes one feel bloated hahaha
you: i am so busy tat i cannot find a day to go out with you....my goodness :( sorry!

i am gng to be a gara guni woman on sunday!
photos soon:)

2007-01-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

i totally miss out the fun
going out with my class today
pls do organise the next one
and i cross my heart tat i will go

i had my most hearty laugh today
after break
rachel imitated how a old person coughed
and boy! you should have see the actual imitation
with the expressions and everything
Sam How and i laughed till tummy hurt
and i even had a hard time climbing up the stairs
dere was this girl who looked at me weirdly
coz i was squatting down at the end of the stairs
and laughing hahaha

i am counting down to BIG V DAY AND CNY
yipee!

i am happy to see you ard everyday
you may seem a joker on the surface
but deep down inside
you re just protecting yourself from pain
preventing others to see the real you....

2007-01-27T16:18:00.000+08:00

my current fav!

For The Love
Drew Sidora feat. Mario

Every time I think about those times I did not have you
Everytime I think about how my life was incomplete
Every day I struggle to breathr to laugh, my heart skipped a beat
From now on, you're the only thing I see
My best and my worst to you it don't matter
You can see through my flaws and keep lovin
Me, me, me
Each day we spend together gets better
With you I can do anything And I share it with you....

[chorus]From now on, everything that I have is yours
For the love of you
From now on everything that you need is yours
For the love of you

Do you remember the night we stood out in the rain
Soaking wet those 3 words I could not say I love you
Now there's three things I need to do I'll tie you down then lead you
Tomorrow take you through all night long
It's only you I give my heart to
Now baby I can say these words I want you, I miss you, I need you
It's only you I give my heart to
So kiss me on my lips, boy I love you
You open my heart now it's yours
Anything you want and more

[chorus]Let me know, let me know
Everything that I have is yours
This is what I'm saying
For the love of you
From now on
Anything that you need is yours
For the love of you
For the love of you, girl

You know you've got me girl
You know you've got me baby
Yes I love you babe
Got nothing but because
Boy, you got me crazy
Never let you down
We've got nothing to lose, baby

I'll be knocking at your door
I'll be ringing at your door
From now on
Everything that I have is yours
For the love of you
From now on
Everything that you need is yours
For the love of you

Yeah, just me and you baby, from now on
Anything you ever need, you ever want
Consider it done
Cause you love you

2007-01-26T21:22:00.000+08:00

i am having this sense of kiasu-nss in me
oh my tian!
everyday i need to go thru my work
at least once before i tell myself
ok xuan tat's for today
oh ya even gp readings! nobody will see me
reading them last yr-which of course contributed
to my S grade for gp...now i am actually reading
and highlighting the points
wolalas!
ran 9 rounds = 3km ard the track
and surprisely i didnt "die" of exhaustion ha!
and my class actually did a cheer at the end of PE
indeed a bunch of crazy ppl we re!

The Big V day is coming and bestie's birthday too!
yap apparently i had thought of the presents
now all i need is to find time to travel to town
(even though is just 10-15 mins journey time from cj)
and hopely i can get the stuffs from there
hope my girlies and guys will like them :)
predicted will be getting them at the last minute
since my next kachings from uncle henry (my boss)
come probably at the end of this mth or early feb

Heavenly pls rain $$ on me!

2007-01-23T21:24:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA!
i made gerard say he loves me today
with his favourite in my hand-
The Meiji Chocolate! hahha
next time i am gng to threat him to call me jie-jie
hahaha!
nowadays i am either studying or sleeping
my bed has become my soulmate now
except tat it doesnt toke to me haha
ok tat is lame
anyway..ya practically like i mentioned
previously i am exercising for four conservative days
each week so ya...
i am SO GOD DAM TIRED!
i am aching everywhere!
i cannot even do a proper pumping now!

oh ya, my friendster is making a comeback
so ppl do add me hehe:)

rhian: hope you re feeling better now! take care girl:)

2007-01-20T14:16:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: June 2

You may watch someone from afar before you finally decide to make your move.It takes a long time for you to develop an attraction to someone.Generally, you prefer to pick who you love. Anyone who tries to rush you is in for some heartache.
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4
You are most compatible with people born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, and 29th of the month.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanforyourlovelifequiz/">What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

2007-01-20T13:48:00.000+08:00

school had been...well
as usual lect after lect,tutorial after tutorial
the amt of laughing gas i released into the atmosphere
had never decreased ever since i got into T15
NO2 in T29= NO2 in T15
the no. of mole of NO2 is the same
according to the mole concept
my goodness! i am getting good at tat!
i kiss the floor for lettin me to have such fun classes...
PE is a torture although i had gone thru it like a yr
but STILL!
i am so000 gng to have abs soon with the no. of crunches
we do each time but tat is a good thing! haha
i am practically exercising for conservative 4 days
mon&wed-training tues & thurs-PE
whoa!
oh ya valentine day
almost the whole swim team will be dating coach carol
coz is our training day oh god tats great....-_-
on the other hand,
chinese new year is coming!
and i am so looking forwards to it
all the kachings and bbq pork -yum yum-

2007-01-16T23:08:00.000+08:00

friends come and go
they may enter your life in a dramatic way
or silently
some ppl find friends to be useless
and rather be alone
but i believe ppl can never survive well
without friends

it is when time of difficulty
tat true friends appear
they are always around when you turn
their encouragements come in all forms
be it verbally, a simple text msg or
just a pat on the shoulders
their hands are always there to hold on
their shoulders are always there to cry on
they simply share your tears and joys
days are just lighten up like that
with their bright smiles and cheerful greetings

True friends oversee your failures and tolerates your successes
they walk in when the whole world walk out on you

2007-01-14T18:55:00.000+08:00

WOLALA i need intensive carebear sessions
i realise each time my other 4 tell me stuffs
my jaw will drop to the floor or to the canteen table
in another word i will get heart attacks
since sch reopens i already suffer twice liao
hoho

The father is funny today
he actually planned to watch dvd on the com
instead of the WHoa-like Home system
which is sitting nicely on the tv console
so he popped the disc into e drive but cannot be played
came to our room and told us the desktop is down
The clever sister sat dere
pretending she didnt hear a single word
so i had no choice but to go and help
in the end,it turned out tat the program for it
was not installed
so went to "dig" out the disc and installed it
he finally gave up not becoz the com is slow
but becoz the speakers were spoilt
oh my mamas!
i can practically roll on the floor
laugh till tear lah
HAHAHAHA

seriously i am dam broke this month
i think next month too
so many birthdays
and i still owe bestie and nette kachings
this is not good, i better return before new yr comes

2007-01-13T13:25:00.000+08:00

two days of lectures and tutorials
whoo i am like actually into the mood of studying
ok my everydays' worry is whether i can make thru
july's common tests after tat i will be worrying if i can make
thru promos oh god!
The Mother is always asking if i want tuition anot
which i so so hate but i really need helps
well tat will come later....
thank god i got nice lecturers and tutors again this time
esp gp lect, we were having a good time laughing our heads off
i so want my gp lect to be in Lt 1 (cross-fingers)
my econ tutor not bad too enjoyed his lesson
but from now on, i had to rmb to raise my hand before i toke
haha so primaryish n funny esp when the guys do it haha

monday got training
both mental and physical
and is also the trial for the newcomers
heard from the people who went to previous
trainings, it is getting tough
we have to meet certain timings
so tat we can go for the nats
or else is a NO-NO
and there goes the chance representing CJ
i can see "inhumane" trainings till july liao
ok i better get myself prepared for Mon
and plus i'm hoping PE is not on Monday
although Mr Tan did say so

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2007-01-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

is quite fun to be in T15
coz the ppl dere re like
super friendly even though
they may not show the friendly-ness on their faces
orientation officially ended yesterday
the finale is a bomb lah
it is as good as the '06 orientation
superly well done!
-thumb up-
i love dragon-boating!
hope it will be included in the 2nd orientation too

was walking ard for lectures today
ok i really miss the time listening to my other 4
toking rubbish esp sam during bio lect
having us laughing our heads off
or looking at our dear olive sleeping and wonder
how on earth can she sleep till the lecturers
do not even notice her (with her tat kind of positions)
or waking our dear sam up in the middle of her sweet dream
and realising i actually will get it from her by disturbing her little naps
haha
and of course all the chairs kicking from the guys sat behind us
i am enjoying my days in T15 but T29 will always be the best class
-sound so cliche-haha

My "Miss" list
sam-i miss your blurness and lame-ness
olive-i miss our hugs and your "trying to make it" jokes haha
yoyo-miss our gossip sessions and your influential laughters
lingyi- lookin at her not laughing at our lame jokes makes me laugh too
shawn-i always wanted to tell you:"SHAWN YOU LOOK LIKE A BIG BEAR!" AHAHA
i miss my punching bag ahaha
kenny&gerard-miss the presences of both (ok this sounds wrong!)
Ivan-my ex 156 bus partner!
hisham-you re the bomb hisham! hahah

ok i practically miss everyone in T29 and plus bestie, meiyi,nette,cheng n some others
yap yap i admit although i do see them during breaks or after sch
but not enough lah

PEOPLE WE NEED GATHERING PLS
DATE ME DATE ME AHAHA

when did i realise you have let go of me?
today?two mths ago? or had it been quite a while?

2007-01-07T20:01:00.000+08:00

seriously oh my mamas
i am SO into korean songs!
the pro is i dun even understand a single word
hah!
it really makes my day if i come across any
regardless if it is fast tempo or sad ones
i simply just dance to the beat or feel down
when i listen to them
oh luckily i haven reach the stage whereby
my future hubby has to be a korean or look like one
but but i think the day will come soon ah...haha

this few days when i'm left alone to think
i always feel tat i have unfinished business
waiting for me but i dunno wat is it/are them
pulled hairs and walked in circles
-thousand times-
but i still can't recall
alrites i am absent-minded i admit
-nods ppl-

Bestie msged, informed me
abt Melly's party on 13th jan
dress code: semiformal
someone pls tell me how should i wear
for the party-begs-
and and i totally need to go shopping next week
coz i dun think my wardrobe has the suitable ones
faints!

the whole family tried out the blood pressure and
body fats monitor machine just now
and we actually had a great time for 1/2 hr
playing with that alien machine-dots-
blood pressure-optimal for the whole family
body fats-The father & The Mother(slightly>acceptable)
The sister(unreadable)
Me (Acceptable)
oh my but i am still not satisfy with it
i noe i noe you can roll your eyes ppl
haha

just realise i feel like squeezing in lunch date with my other 4
shopping for clothes for mel's party+her present and cheng's too
in two pathetic days
ok i am too ambitious
ciao ppl!

2007-01-06T16:19:00.000+08:00

last day of IG orientation yesterday
i actually"drop" out of my door
in the morning when i was leaving for sch
and sprained my ankle
so embarrassing
and i actually had to limp all the way into
the sch compound faints
but i ignored my injury and
had fun at PA
playing with mud and water
and runnin ard like crazy monkey
realised after one yr of running
i actually can run ahaha
ok this random
but oh pls that is my achievement too
-wide smile-
funny stuffs happened during the games
and found out tat my IG ppl are
hyperactive ppl actually
tat's good-grins-
wanted to go out dinning with my other 4
but becoz i came back wet and smelly
i pangsehed them in the end

Alot of people signed up to try out swimming
a very good sign
we need people with potential so tat we can
push our ranking up in nationals
but i hope they do turn up for the trial
kepp my fingers cross

sorry my other 3 pangsehed for our dinner date
but i am sure dere is always next time rite!
love ya all!

2007-01-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

Second day of orientation

mass dance is fun esp having yonglin as my partner
we totally rock the dancefloor ahaha
games re getting dirtier too
my mamas!
tmr PA and i heard we re getting a MUD BATH
i am so prepared ahaha
come back all muddy and sweaty
cca selection day too
sticking back to swimming

finally met my dearies
miss them so much lah
they re like so lucky! never ending breaks
wolala!
carebeared with my other 3, coz olive went for dental
hope to meet them soon coz i dun really want to lose touch
with the "world" belonging to my same age group
or should i say current affairs ahaha
no offence peeps!

i just want to say really touched to noe you all allowed me to be part
of T29 time capsule-winks-

2007-01-02T15:39:00.000+08:00

goodbyes to 06 and hellos to 07

ok i noe summing up the year should have been before the year ends
but heck it lah! haha
wat should i say abt 2006
erm.....it definitely had been a great year
a lot of ups and downs
met new friends and of course strengthened old friendships
understood tat not everything will turn out wat I wanted them to be initiately
most importantly, just do my best and no regrets
whoo! tat will be my new motto for Year 2007
ahaha!

toking abt new yr resolutions
i find it quite superficial if i state them in my blog
wat if i dun stick to them or change one of them a little bit haha
all i can say is that i predicted i'm gng to enjoy yr 2007
as much as last yr( my goodness yr 06 is already in the history!)
or even more
and to achieve watever i want to this yr

here comes the funny part
ok maybe i'm being lame haha
had been thinking wat should i say for the introduction part
during the orientation erm....
should i say
1. hi! i am wei xuan from cjc
cca: swimming
or
2. hi! i am wei xuan from IJ STC
cca: dance
huh? which one ah? hahaha

preena is even more hilarious
she even asked me if we re allow to wear IJ uniform instead
Oh my mamas!

2006-12-31T17:45:00.000+08:00

yesterday
was supposed to meet the team
for our sort of end-yr dinner at marina
but i couldnt make it
and even made my dear sharon
called me since i only told kenneth
sorry sharon!
i miss her ok! long time didnt see her alrdy
my best senior!

so work till 7 plus reaching 8
home-ed and went to IMM with my mama
and meiei since daddy not at home
didnt plan to shop
but when i saw the poster outside F.O.X
saying:
40% storewide+15% off if you purchase 3 or more
and the funny thing is tat
my mama was the first one to "dash" into the store
shall not elaborate wat we did inside
in short-we showcased the kiasu-ness of S'porean
was feeling rich so told mama and meimei
that i would each buy them something
as post-christmas presents
but in the end only bought a gym-like pant
for myself
next stop-espirit: a top
went samuel and kevin& Giordano
my sis bought 3 tops and a pair of jeans
payments of course went to my mama
(she was feeling generous)
shopped till 10 plus
meimei and I homed feeling happy

went to continue my shopping spree
today at the same place
coz went back to exchange sizes
for meimei's tops at S&K
again three of us were captivated by
the sale in FOX and we totally
"abandoned" daddy outside the store
leaving him wandering ard by himself
haha
bought myself 1 top and 2 for meimei
mama said she had alot of clothes
so i will get something else for her instead
went to adidas and bought my black bottle
for like 7 bucks!
next come the big thing!
went ard BEST
and mama saw this electronic piano
which i always wanted gng on sale
ta-da! it is coming to my hse this coming fri!

something to add
the sale guy who was doing all the talkings
one word-handsome
the voice also very nice to listen to
-evil grin- hahaha

i so love post christmas sale
i'm a happy girl today
got to start thinking abt my new yr resolutions

2006-12-28T14:18:00.000+08:00

came back from 4C chalet not long ago
to me it was quite successful haha
the bad weather is the only wet blanket
cherie n olive couldnt skate
get to meet all my besties
whoah! haha

was dam late when i met olive
and meiyi at parkway parade
wanted to take taxi to east coast
but the stupid queue was SUPER long
cherie's mom was so nice to fetch us dere
so check in and went to our block
haha since i had been taught to be "nice"
to those stuffs that we cannot see with our
naked eyes
i ask olive and cherie to knock on doors
before gng in haha
in the end both of them were freaked out by me
haha better be safe than sorry ma
so we settle in and wait for the food
in between we had some dramas
like walking ard in circle ard the area till
heavy rain started pouring on us
bein lame and stupid to entertain ourselves

the food came rather late
now i noe nver praise the person
who is the starting the fire
kinda of jinx
and this is from true experience
haha
then nat,her gf, yo and pei came
whoah didnt get to see them for the
whole holiday
three of them were so enthu tt they
changed into the ij uni to take pics
haha
we kept eating and eating and eating
oh my mama! sound like pig haha
cass came then amanda and adelyn
followed by germaine, phoi yee and dionne
and we kept feasting
took pics and updates each other on
"current affairs"
soon it was time for them to go
hugs and kisses given
like wat cherie said we shall
have such gathering till we re old grandmamas
haha
pei offered her hse for next yr
and two years later it will be cherie's turn
haha sound so fun
so the remaining ppl spent the rest of the night
toking abt our OLD DAYS in STC
and also "current affairs" haha
wat to do coz we kinda of best in that
went mac at 4 plus am
but we were half asleep except cass
maybe due to her maple syrup haha
then went back to sleep again...

really glad that most of them were able
to make it yesterday
i had fun and hope they did too
thank for coming peeps!
hope to see all of you plus more ppl
in our 4c gathering next yr
haha

those who have pics do send over pls thank!

2006-12-23T23:48:00.000+08:00

can you believe this!?
coz i personally dun
hahaha!

ok i am gng crazy soon

2006-12-23T18:50:00.000+08:00

long working hours
is making me emo-ing
evry now and then

abt half an hr ago
i came up with 2 scenerio

1. given a girl who you love wholeheartedly
and will rather die if you re not spending
every single second with her
but turn out she only loves you
tweeen bits and that's it

2.given a girl who loves you wholeheartedly
and is willing to do anythin jus to make you happy
but turn out you only loves her a tween bits

which one will you choose?

if i'm a guy, i will choose 1
dun ask me why
i also dunno
but it is the ans i thou thru
for quite sometime

you?

2006-12-23T13:27:00.000+08:00

ok i need to do confession-s
guilts re stirring in me now
christmas is really ROUND E CORNER
and miss liong wei xuan here
is halfway thru her xmas shopping still
cards that was supposed to be sent
out to e post office
re still sitting on my table comfortablely
i think i will just pass them to the peeps
personally-wtd haiz...
later during my tea break
gng to shop for more presents

read the jan's issue of the seventeen
it says that i will be very broke once 06 ends
all along i never really believe wat was written
on the horoscope page
but now i think i should
with me spending $$ like water
and the upcoming chalet
haha the hole in my pocket is
getting bigger and BIGGER
faints mama!

toking abt the chalet
i was laughing like a crazy girl
in front of my lappie last night
while having msn conversation
with her and tyrant
cherie is getting crazy after
a year in aust
and it is certified lah
my goodness
ill be having alot of laughters
with her, nat and yo ard
the 2 laughing mamas and 1 smelly monster
haha!

i miss you
i really do
my prince charming...

2006-12-22T14:14:00.000+08:00

i haven been doing much stuffs recently

had been busy painting my room

packing my clothes into the new wardrobe

i so love my new wardrobe

really is time to settle down and be focus

coz from 3rd jan 07 i will be on a "probation"

haha six months to prove my worth in cj...

now i have to start all over again

gng thru two orientations

making new friends

of course, holding on to the current ones

strongly..

i noe i promised-ed to upload photos

but i am so lazy to do so haha

and plus my cam is not user-friendly

got to plug so many wires

but i will still find time to do so

haha

christmas is coming ...

a time to share joys and laughters

and maybe to reflect if you had been

a naughty one

i want my present santa claus!

hohoho

laimeiyi: re you somewhere in singapore? you seen to be missing in action!

blah...suppose to go out with lala, cherie and bestie but now i can't

coz got to stay at home for some kind of chinese occasion

haiz i got to pangseh them now ahha

they gng to skin me alive when i meet them for our "ij night"

for being a wet blanket...

sorry dearies!

ill be working till 1am tmr

anyone happen to be in town

be kind to pop up anytime

i will be grateful for that haha

2006-12-13T15:07:00.000+08:00

whee class bbq on monday
at gerard's HUGE homy
wasnt really a class one
rather it should be close friends gathering
plus mr yee
chef of the day was SHAWN LOO
he was good (coz i didnt get stomachache!)
haha....
sue maine,yo
had to leave early so onli get to see them
for a while
but nvm we re arranging for
presents exchanging day ahaha
i love the potato salad and chicken wings
haha...stay till quite late
funfunfun...

photo updating soon...

2006-12-09T13:43:00.000+08:00

swim trainings was tough...

trainin hard for my freestyle and stamina

went for mon and fri training onli

coz overslept for wed one haha

mon i think got self training

godness i cant feel my limbs now

haha

haven start my christmas shoppin yet

gng to be dead boob

i think my list gng to be long

and worse i dun no wat to buy for them

everybody re so busy nowadays

want to meet up...but there is always

something coming in between

monday class bbq whee!

olive sounds so sercetive

so now i still dunno where is it

and wat time...more like a sercet mission

haha

nvm lah as long as can spend time with them

which i am not gng to do so often next yr

yap yap i am cool with it haha

coz they will never escape from moi anyway

ahaha i sound so evil !

my closest peeps: i love you all! ahaha

2006-12-03T16:09:00.000+08:00

lalala finally able to see NG LILy yesterday
thought haven see each other for half a yr
but i think almost one yr liao ba
hahaha
good to see cheng too
(if i dun mention her i ill be skinned alive)
hahaa
didnt get to spend alot of time with them coz
mama still "swimming" in the volcano
didnt want to risk being grounded for "life"
i miss them so much
we arrange to suntan next next sun
godness cannot wait already
coz gossip time aha!

training starts tmr
got to swim away all my stubborn fats
canoe ppls gng for their expendition too
the rest planning to have breakfast together
to send them off
ill rush down to meet them after training
if not then
to the canoe ppls: have fun and take care!
loves!

2006-12-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

hohoho
i am back
back from Kl
n most importantly
back to my usual self
ahaha

my Kl trip was fun and ok
did my retail therapy
but i was weird
i actually spent ringgit
like sing dollars
ahhaa

me:"my god! see that pair of sexy heels
!70+ dollars!"

mama:"cheap ma..considering that brand"

me:"hah! 70+ leh ! "

mama:"honey... pls rmb you re in KL now not singapore.."

me: "......"

i admit at that moment i 4got ahaha
so i bought a wallet, converse shoes(i so love it!) , heels(mama bought)
belt and clothes...
and i left 30 bucks(RM) from a total of 200 buck(RM)...
ahaha

went to meet bro for the appeal of my repeating
together with my parents
also i had to face the music
and made promises that i must fulfil

bro was a little bit against me appealing
but i didnt give in or rather i should say
i refuse to
coz i noe i can do it
haha i think he will sigh when he sees my reply form
ahaha
hey something to highlight
he praised me for my excellent conduct
coz from the comments reflected by the tutors
they saw my hardwork and time spent in wanting to do well
(applaud pls)
just tt my efforts wasnt pay off
well..contradicting rite ahaha

gazillion thanks to my friends who are willing to go thru
thick and thin with me
esp my front 5 members,pei,meiyi,gerard,kenny,shawn,nette,sharon, yonglin
i really love them to the core
will always rmb wat they had done for me
although to them, it is just a small little thingy
but to me ...it is enough to warm my heart
and gave me the strength to pick myself up from where i fell

2006-11-20T16:04:00.000+08:00

it's time to let go
it's time to grow up
it's time to face the music
it's time to go against the flow

i will never give up my dream
even though it does cost me a lot of time
a year is long
is equal to a very long time
but it is also another chance
to do wat i want to do
instead of ending it now
i may have lose the chance
to be in the same level and even
same class as my friends
but i noe i ill always be one of them
and they re supporting me behind

i noe i will survive thru
if not in cj but in other jcs too
i have to learn to let go certain things
things may not always turn out
the way i want them to be
i may not graduate together with them
but i will still meet them in uni anyway
being able to retain is not a bad thing
afterall... at least is a chance

PS:thanks for consoling me ppl
haha now all of you cannot escape already
got to be my personal tutors next yr

i am ok i am really ok
i just need to get thru
my own mental obstacle

2006-11-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

when your friends say that
they have faith in you
do believe them
coz they saw something
that you will never see
in yourself

yesterday was xy's birthday
hope she enjoyed herself
although there was
some drama o-mamas

today i was supposed to meet
the guys at around 10
becoz today the E-2max bdate party
and got the invitations for them
to have free stuffs
but as usual i was late
oh my mama
this bad habit should change hah
they re so cute kept saying thank you-s
to me
i got to watch Steps up for free too
with yo, sam, buddy, gerard and clarence
the movie is sizzly, sexy and hot lah
and the songs!
wolalala

makes me want to take up dancing again
i miss the excitements
when preparing for performances
and the frustrations
when i cannot get the steps rite
dance does stimulate my brain ahaha
and not to forget the feeling
when dancing with other dancers

hey ppl i will inform all of you
abt the next sizzly deal
if available haha
n dun thank-you me anymore
hope all of you really had fun today!